hai... so tired.. first day back to work from 10am to 1am... stay in e hotel n work 7am 2day til 8pm.. so tiring... yesterday msg vin he didnt reply expected tt he must b busy... 2day he reply me at about 11am when he reach home... hai...even work 4 so long hrs still cannot get him out of my mind y...... i believe he is e only guy so far tt i really like & doesnt wan 2 lost him s a friend at e same time... sometime things r meant 4 u 2 c n not 2 have it... if u try 2 have it u might lose it 4ever.... always feel tt s long s e 1 tt we like is happy ourselves will b happy no matter who he or she is with.... human r so idiot right... when they have it they dun treasure it, when its really gone no hope 4 them then they trying 2 have it back...
its 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 late..... guys n gals treasure watever u have now dun b 2 sturborn on certain things.. any misunderstanding talk things out till it works... dun quarrel just b cause of small matters, it will make ur relation turn sour hor.....

another day has pass.... i really miss him alot alot alot.... grace has given me a pair of earings s bday present it very nice, thks gal i like it alot... thks for helping me develope e photo.... although cannot c him in real but can c him in photo i m very happy liao.... how i wish time can turn back to when we know each other...when he want to meet me i should have meet him.... i m stupid right but wat is over is over hahahaha.... then i can let him know how much i love him b 4 his gf come back for holiday.... anyway i know tt he knows but just act blur.... love love love... hai......

haiz.... another day again.... went to watch movie w cat... watch E day after 2morrow... a very mindingful show... life is so boring feel like dyeing liao.... whole day nothing to do just thinking of him.... hai wat can i do... pls help me to ocupy my time so tt i can think lesser of him... hahahaha.... maybe bury myself in work again will be better... 1 at conrad 1 at devils so i can enjoy myself at e same time hor.... hahahaha.... gal gal is stress at work cause she cant hit target at all... well gal just cool down relax dont stress urself so its easier for u to work.... ade all e best in ur career wish u earn tons on money.... cat i know tt arty has no time to company u but can c he change alot just 4 u, relax n give him time kkkkkk..... joanne takes things easy s it come better guys out there n ur men might be coming soon on e way..... GALS RELAX HAPPY-GO-LUCKY NO MATTER WAT HAPPENED I WILL BE THERE 4 ALL OF U..... s 4 me hope tt my 1 & only wish wil come true no matter how long i need 2 wait, memories will b 4ever in my mind s long s i m alive from e first day til e end.....

hai really a very boring day.... dont know wat to do.... lots of things in mind...i really really like him alot... seems tt i cant give him up.. but i have to force myself to 4get him n remain s gd friend cause he is stil in love w his gf... there is totally nothing i can do... thinking of him at times do make my tears flow.... god pls help me wat can i do.... theres nothing i can do.. my heart is in pain now more painful than wat i had expected.. y must god make a fool of ppl... y must they have such a thing cal 'love'... how i wish i m a cold blooded animal then i wouldnt get hurt at all.... when i dont c him i miss him alot.... when i c him i can only treat him s a gd friend... i know tt he is not tt stupid s he dont know whom i like cause its so obvious tt almost all his gang knows tt.... i really really really like him alot... wat can i do wat can i do....

hai.... finally home.... wat a boring day..... life seems boring to me everyday eat sleep work clubbing, nothing new.... happy tt yesterday vin n gang came for e chalet again n stay till morning 5am than they left... vin told me tt he like e perfurm, i m happy to heard tt coming from him personally.... he told me tt his birthday is coming soon n its his turn to treat me back... well i believe his gf come n fetch him cause he is not driving yesterday.. when i know tt he is going off i feel lost in my heart... i really really like him alot.. but he told me tt he is still waiting 4 his gf to finish studies n they went through alot to be 2gether... although his feeling is not s strong s e time tt they r 2gether but he still love her.... i ever hint him b 4 tt i like him but he say tt he dun believe cause all e while we r very close n gd friend.... i believe he knows it but was not facing it cause i didnt tell him personally... hai... y like tt... i feel so sad n confuse, confuse, confuse....

yesterday is my first day of chalet.... happy tt vin & gang come down even though its late, they reach about 12+ after midnite... well vin had given me a present & he still own me 1 s he had forgotten to bring... he told me tt e 2nd present will b more girl girl present... i m really very happy tt he came s he had promise although he told me he might not b able to make it cause he had things to do.... well they stay till about 3+ then they went home cause tue they working morning n most of them r tired, b 4 they left i have given 1 btl of eternity to vin n s per my gal grace told me tt he like it alot even though he seldom use perfurm.... e rest of them say tt if he dont use can give it to them... vin told them tt even if not using also can keep in e car, can use it for display or use it whenever he need to.... i m so happy when i heard tt.... i really dont know i really very lost.... after i know him i always have very happy memory when he is around... memories tt will always stay in my mind no matter how or wat happened.... no matter if he like me or not.... y things always turn out to be like drama always...... some1 u like have gf or no feeling 4 u, some1 u dont like wil always go 4 ur attention y...........

i m so lost.... cause e 1 i love seems to know but dont seems to react at all.... his gf is back in singapore for summer holiday... although feel a bit sad but there nothing i can do..... so happy yesterday at devils..... taken some photo w him indiviually... will keep tt photo s memory 4ever.... i cant tel him anythings at e main time cause i want him to come to e chalet.... perharps i will tell him after my chalet how i really feel.... S long S he is happy i m happy... ",)